The survivor in the 2017 actress sexual assault case has spoken candidly about her emotional state after the recent court verdict. In a heartfelt interview, she described feeling overwhelmed and isolated, struggling to face the outside world.
Survivor Details Emotional Turmoil Following Court Decision
Last month, a district sessions court in Kerala delivered its verdict in the high-profile 2017 actress sexual assault case. The court convicted six accused individuals and sentenced them to twenty years of rigorous imprisonment. However, the court acquitted Malayalam actor Dileep and three other defendants in the same case.
"I Was Just Sitting at Home" - Survivor's Raw Admission
During her conversation with Galatta Plus, the actress survivor revealed her current emotional landscape. "It is very complicated to say it in one word," she explained. "I am going through a lot of emotions. Some days I will be okay, some days I try to be okay, and some days I am not."
She continued with poignant honesty, "I can't put it in words and say that this is what I am going through. It is a mix of emotions which I have to handle silently."
The Safety Bubble and Social Withdrawal
The survivor described retreating into what she called her "safety bubble" for nearly six weeks after the verdict. "I slacked a lot," she admitted. "Like I am just sitting at home, not ready to step out or face people."
This period of withdrawal followed the emotional rollercoaster of the court's decision, which brought both conviction for some and acquittal for others involved in her assault case.
The Pressure to Appear Happy
The actress further shared a personal struggle she faces in public settings. "I have this bad habit of trying to be happy all the time," she confessed. "Maybe because I started all this from a very young age. Deep down, I know that I have to be pleasant and presentable in front of people."
She elaborated on this coping mechanism, saying, "Even if I am going through a very tough phase in my life, when I come out to face camera and people, I'll put an extra effort to be happy."
Anxiety During the Interview
The survivor described the physical manifestations of her anxiety when she ventured out for the interview. "I had put myself in a very comfortable position where I see only my family and close friends, that nobody would judge me," she said.
"When I came today for the interview, I was okay in the car, but had a bit of anxiety while getting ready. When I reached here, the moment I got down from the car, I was having palpitations. I just went blank, didn't know whether to smile or not."
She concluded with determination, "That is the nervousness and anxiety. I know that I cannot be in that position forever."
The survivor's powerful testimony highlights the lasting emotional impact of sexual assault cases, even after legal proceedings conclude. Her words shed light on the personal struggles that continue long after courtrooms empty and headlines fade.
